home sweet home.....

well,many of you are studying in universities.As you know-once you leave your home-there is actually no coming back.You visit home as if you are a guest there-passing your time for a while.And getting back to your own tiny little dorm room seems more relieving!As for me,i don't remember the last time i actually enjoyed staying home-every time i go there i feel like an alien-its jut not the way i am.
But sometime, when you are alone-got nothing in special to do-you'll know-how painful it is -not to have a home-where you could find a shade-amidst the worst condition around-where-you could actually breathe without much worries.Thats the home i'm talking about-thats what i've craved all my life.

The next best thing!!!

Sometime I'm so absorbed in grief that i start thinking there is no end to this-no way out.And then suddenly something happens that soothes everything and calms me down with a tranquil feeling-as if everything is going to be right. This very morning i was jeopardized making a decision-weather to to move my sick mom to Dhaka for treatment...i was confused as i visited a couple of hospitals here-I definitely didn't want my mom to live some places like those.Then suddenly my sister sorted out something-and at that moment it seemed so right!
So,its like-i felt-we give up hope so easily-speculating that nothing is going to be changed-where-there lies immense possibility that-at the twinkling of an eye-the whole scenario could come in your favor.Just keep running-you'll see the rest yourself.Keep up your hopes-your aspirations high-who knows-the very next day-you could be the next best thing ever happened!!!

Relationships!!

Relationship is indeed something that has tickled me all my life-provoked me think over and reconsider many fact I used to believe. It has been sometime mortifying-sometime amusing and even sometime horrifying to me-watching how people go through this thing. Tell you a story-one of my distant friend Mr.X has been dating a girl since he has been into the university. Well, I hardly know much about the relation. All I could know is the girl used to study in a collage at a little town-far from Dhaka. Happy they seemed-with those night-chats over the cell phone for hours as I used to observe-romancing their way to some final destinations. And there came the crucial part then-they started fighting. I wouldn’t want to remember how disgusting it was to overhear those filthy word they used to each other-blaming what had been fallen upon them. Every alternative day-they had a fight-and the very next morning they were the happiest couple around. I was confused and startled-how could people so reluctantly and so abjectly move on with something like this for days?

There comes the evident question-why do we really get into a relationship? Is it because we want the peace of mind? Or is it just simply because of sex-that after those platonic stages we finally get the chance to get laid? Or is it just something that we just do instinctively-not with much thinking? Who has this answer?

strange pilgrims

How does it feel when-after certain amounts of proofs and incidents-you find out that you are ,by far means ,distant-from all the people around ?Would you feel lonely ?Or get relived discovering the fact that you enjoy the privilege of being free from most of the troubles happening around ?I’m not actually sure what should be correct answer as there exist none in sort of situations .

Usually-as the trade goes-my type of people are called selfish-often self centered-circling around all by ourselves .But can you blame someone for being himself ?Some people are born like that and some chose to be demanding on the situations .Its like hiding from the cruel world-because you are weak and afraid to face the realities-or may be-because you hate to co-inside with the filthy and tormenting part of real life .

And in some rare cases-it’s a disguise-deceiving people around-when-you don’t want others to see what lies beneath the outside you-your very own self portrait !Its like putting a musk-keeping acting as the show goes on-you must laugh-make fun-always be careful so that your make over doesn’t sweat away !And sometime-you wait-and watch-if somebody-rarely-touches your very core-feel what you are really made of-and cry with you-the cry you’ve stored for a very long time …….

what do we really want in life!

The days here are as exhausting as they could be!The weather is sweltering,hot and humid.And this part of the year,i specially get plenty of time to think over different issues around.Today,i was thinking about the reasons we live with-our very own ones-that we do care amidst every conditions.And contradictory enough it was to find that hardly we have those reasons-those significant ones that obliges us to struggle for existence.You might be amused-or even laugh at me-cause this is not something we would like to hear-but there are some points that made me come to this decision.
We live by moments-seconds i should say-instead of continuous thoughts.we step ahead or step back-based on instincts-momentary ones.Do you remember yourself thinking too much about something and work accordingly? Well,I don't-cause thats the way it is.We don't want to think much-its just not 'us'.We are fickle and impatient-sorting out the ways around-not thinking what's best for you-rather-whats easier to adopt under the circumstances!

my first blog

well,i heard so much about blogging and other people doing it,hardly i found any interest in it....but somehow its hard to resist this attraction to open up in some distant horizon...what can i say,life is more bizarre than i thought!